In Memory of James Gandolfini

Written by Carlos Samaniego

Topics: Commentary, Health

This morning I read the tragic news of the untimely passing a 
great actor, James Gandolfini. I like many of you just knew of
him through his acting
, and he was truly a brilliant artist.

I received this email below from Author/Writer Neil Strauss and
wanted to share this email with you about his memory James Gandolfini.

All rights and credits for email belong to Neil Strauss (

IN Memory of James Gandolfini

An hour ago, I received an email from a mutual friend that

James Gandolfini had passed away.

Like everyone else who both knew him and didn't, my reaction

was shock and sadness.

"I go to dinner parties and everyone expects me to be Tony

Soprano," he said when we first met. "But I'm nothing like him."

I think a lot of people didn't know the real "Jim Gandolfini."

And in the few times I met with him, I got to know a man who was

gruff and curmudgeonly on the exterior, but on the inside had one

of the biggest hearts, sharpest minds, and most tender souls of

anyone I'd ever met.

He was also one of the most self-deprecating people I'd ever

encountered, almost to a fault.

And he taught me more about screenwriting than I've learned

from anyone else.

I'm sharing this email with all of you in the spirit of

those first words he shared with me–as a way of helping and

hoping people remember James Gandolfini and not just Tony Soprano

in the media deluge that is beginning.

I'd first met Gandolfini at a hotel in New York, at a meeting set

up by Jared Leto, who was producing a TV drama called Roadies that

I was writing.

In the end, Gandolfini agreed to produce and star in the show. But

on one condition: "As long as I'm not having too much sex. I'm too

old to be doing that shit."

He wasn't even fifty at the time, and was brimming with

intensity and vitality, yet would often list his complaints:

"My neck's fucked up. When I get on the elliptical, my back hurts.

When I get on the treadmill, my knees hurt."

His presence was intimidating. He carried solitude with him

like a ball and chain. He spoke in few words and always directly

–and he expected the same from everyone he met. What I admired

most about him was his brutal honesty. It was never a secret what

he was thinking. And he was always right–except about one thing,


"Everyone I've lived with, I've literally driven crazy," he

told me one day in Santa Monica. "I shouldn't have stayed

around. I'm demanding and I'm a perfectionist."

Yet even as he said those words, it was clear that he was

loved far more than he gave himself credit for.

The moment that I remember the most is when he was talking

over lunch one day about a woman who was one of the loves of

his life. However, in the end, he chose a stripper over her.

He ended up beating some guy up over the stripper  and was

being hunted down by the guy's friends–and moved to Los Angeles

just to keep from being killed.

As he talked about that decision and how she passed away

afterward, his face reddened and tears started dripping out of

his eyes. It's humbling to see a man like that cry. It was clearly

a regret he's lived with every day.

"If you had to go back, and you were that age, would you choose

the stripper again?" I asked him.

"Yes," he replied. "She was hot."

One of his other biggest loves was this country. "Americans

are good people: it's a great country," he always said. "It's

just the government that's fucked up."

In no particular order, her are some my favorite lessons he

taught me on writing for television:

*The less direct communication, the better.

*Have the characters lie about things, even if it's just

about being late; have conversations that don't go anywhere;

have people who don't say anything and just take things in.

*Never explain anything: the audience should always be

catching up with you.

*Keep it in reality: stock to a straight narrative. Avoid

things like montages over music and voiceovers when possible.

*And his best piece of advice, which I should have heeded

more closely: "Don't let the network push us around or take us

off track or threaten the realness and creativity. Make the show

what we want–interesting, funny, and smart–and if no one likes

it, we make another one. But no matter what, it should be the

show we want and believe in."

And that's another thing I admired about him: His incredible

integrity. He always felt that his acting success was an

accident, yet was ridiculously talented and steadfastly

dedicated to television and film as a medium of art making

a statement on life, religion, politics, society, and the

inner and outer struggles of living in this world today. (He

was intensely critical of television shows that he felt

were light and shallow, which was just about everything

on the air.)

In several of the scenes Gandolfini suggested for the show,

there was always a common theme: Finding a larger peace amidst

the everyday chaos of working to survive.

"Let's put in a scene," he said at one of our last meetings,

"where everyone wakes up and the bus is stopped. And the roadies

are standing outside and looking at the sunset in the Mojave

Desert." He paused and went there in his mind, and a half-

smile spread across his face. "Sometimes people just need quiet

and space–and the feeling of being free."

So wherever he is now, I take solace in the fact that he is


For those of us here, besides the loss of a great man, it's

also a cultural tragedy: As an actor, Gandolfini had still

only scratched the surface of the depth and greatness of his

talent. And even that sliver is more than most actors can hope

to achieve in their lifetimes.

Condolences to his wife, his children, his managers, his

collaborators, and all those who knew and loved him.

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